A pocket of resistance comes to the fore and hits me on the head. Not knowing where it comes from I have to be aware that I’m fighting something that is deeper than what I think it is on the surface. Here I am in my 60’s and still finding out more and more about myself. Where is the story behind it? My friend Jackie said, “Ask God, ‘Show me what I need to see’”.
The thing is I’ve carried this particular baggage in my heart and mind for years and years but now I’m ready for the answer. Prayer and meditation and then sleep. I dreamt most of the answer. I thought I had forgiven but apparently there was still some unforgiveness lurking. Who knows what we hide deep in our hearts. But I know I can move forward. Let’s see where this takes me on my journey as a person and as an artist.. What story can I tell now without the resistance?